Gania laughed sarcastically, but said nothing. The prince, seeing that he did
not quite like the last remark, blushed, and was silent too.
"Don't give it to him if he does. Fancy, he was a decent, respectable man
once! He was received in the best society; he was not always the liar he is now.
Of course, wine is at the bottom of it all; but he is a good deal worse than an
innocent liar now. Do you know that he keeps a mistress? I can't understand how
mother is so long-sufferring. Did he tell you the story of the siege of Kars? Or
perhaps the one about his grey horse that talked? He loves, to enlarge on these
absurd histories." And Gania burst into a fit of laughter. Suddenly he turned to
the prince and asked: "Why are you looking at me like that?"
"I am surprised to see you laugh in that way, like a child. You came to make
friends with me again just now, and you said, 'I will kiss your hand, if you
like,' just as a child would have said it. And then, all at once you are talking
of this mad project--of these seventy-five thousand roubles! It all seems so
absurd and impossible."
"That you are rushing madly into the undertaking, and that you would do well
to think it over again. It is more than possible that Varvara Ardalionovna is
right."
"Ah! now you begin to moralize! I know that I am only a child, very well,"
replied Gania impatiently. "That is proved by my having this conversation with
you. It is not for money only, prince, that I am rushing into this affair," he
continued, hardly master of his words, so closely had his vanity been touched.
"If I reckoned on that I should certainly be deceived, for I am still too weak
in mind and character. I am obeying a passion, an impulse perhaps, because I
have but one aim, one that overmasters all else. You imagine that once I am in
possession of these seventy-five thousand roubles, I shall rush to buy a
carriage... No, I shall go on wearing the old overcoat I have worn for three
years, and I shall give up my club. I shall follow the example of men who have
made their fortunes. When Ptitsin was seventeen he slept in the street, he sold
pen-knives, and began with a copeck; now he has sixty thousand roubles, but to
get them, what has he not done? Well, I shall be spared such a hard beginning,
and shall start with a little capital. In fifteen years people will say, 'Look,
that's Ivolgin, the king of the Jews!' You say that I have no originality. Now
mark this, prince-- there is nothing so offensive to a man of our time and race
than to be told that he is wanting in originality, that he is weak in character,
has no particular talent, and is, in short, an ordinary person. You have not
even done me the honour of looking upon me as a rogue. Do you know, I could have
knocked you down for that just now! You wounded me more cruelly than Epanchin,
who thinks me capable of selling him my wife! Observe, it was a perfectly
gratuitous idea on his part, seeing there has never been any discussion of it
between us! This has exasperated me, and I am determined to make a fortune! I
will do it! Once I am rich, I shall be a genius, an extremely original man. One
of the vilest and most hateful things connected with money is that it can buy
even talent; and will do so as long as the world lasts. You will say that this
is childish--or romantic. Well, that will be all the better for me, but the
thing shall be done. I will carry it through. He laughs most, who laughs last.
Why does Epanchin insult me? Simply because, socially, I am a nobody. However,
enough for the present. Colia has put his nose in to tell us dinner is ready,
twice. I'm dining out. I shall come and talk to you now and then; you shall be
comfortable enough with us. They are sure to make you one of the family. I think
you and I will either be great friends or enemies. Look here now, supposing I
had kissed your hand just now, as I offered to do in all sincerity, should I
have hated you for it afterwards?"
"Certainly, but not always. You would not have been able to keep it up, and
would have ended by forgiving me," said the prince, after a pause for
reflection, and with a pleasant smile.
"Oho, how careful one has to be with you, prince! Haven't you put a drop of
poison in that remark now, eh? By the way--ha, ha, ha!-- I forgot to ask, was I
right in believing that you were a good deal struck yourself with Nastasia
Philipovna
"And yet you flush up as red as a rosebud! Come--it's all right. I'm not
going to laugh at you. Do you know she is a very virtuous woman? Believe it or
not, as you like. You think she and Totski-- not a bit of it, not a bit of it!
Not for ever so long! Au revoir!"
Gania left the room in great good humour. The prince stayed behind, and
meditated alone for a few minutes. At length, Colia popped his head in once
more.
"I don't want any dinner, thanks, Colia. I had too good a lunch at General
Epanchin's."
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