Such, then, was the person that I saw seated on the transom when I followed
Captain Peleg down into the cabin. The space between the decks was small; and
there, bolt upright, sat old Bildad, who always sat so, and never leaned, and
this to save his coat-tails. His broad-brim was placed beside him; his legs were
stiffly crossed; his drab vesture was buttoned up to his chin; and spectacles on
nose, he seemed absorbed in reading from a ponderous volume.
"He'll do," said Bildad, eyeing me, and then went on spelling away at his
book in a mumbling tone quite audible.
I thought him the queerest old Quaker I ever saw, especially as Peleg, his
friend and old shipmate, seemed such a blusterer. But I said nothing, only
looking round me sharply. Peleg now threw open a chest, and drawing forth the
ship's articles, placed pen and ink before him, and seated himself at a little
table. I began to think it was high time to settle with myself at what terms I
would be willing to engage for the voyage. I was already aware that in the
whaling business they paid no wages; but all hands, including the captain,
received certain shares of the profits called lays, and that these lays were
proportioned to the degree of importance pertaining to the respective duties of
the ship's company. I was also aware that being a green hand at whaling, my own
lay would not be very large; but considering that I was used to the sea, could
steer a ship, splice a rope, and all that, I made no doubt that from all I had
heard I should be offered at least the 275th lay--that is, the 275th part of the
clear net proceeds of the voyage, whatever that might eventually amount to. And
though the 275th lay was what they call a rather long lay, yet it was better
than nothing; and if we had a lucky voyage, might pretty nearly pay for the
clothing I would wear out on it, not to speak of my three years' beef and board,
for which I would not have to pay one stiver.
It might be thought that this was a poor way to accumulate a princely
fortune--and so it was, a very poor way indeed. But I am one of those that never
take on about princely fortunes, and am quite content if the world is ready to
board and lodge me, while I am putting up at this grim sign of the Thunder
Cloud. Upon the whole, I thought that the 275th lay would be about the fair
thing, but would not have been surprised had I been offered the 200th,
considering I was of a broad-shouldered make.
But one thing, nevertheless, that made me a little distrustful about
receiving a generous share of the profits was this: Ashore, I had heard
something of both Captain Peleg and his unaccountable old crony Bildad; how that
they being the principal proprietors of the Pequod, therefore the other and more
inconsiderable and scattered owners, left nearly the whole management of the
ship's affairs to these two. And I did not know but what the stingy old Bildad
might have a mighty deal to say about shipping hands, especially as I now found
him on board the Pequod, quite at home there in the cabin, and reading his Bible
as if at his own fireside. Now while Peleg was vainly trying to mend a pen with
his jack-knife, old Bildad, to my no small surprise, considering that he was
such an interested party in these proceedings; Bildad never heeded us, but went
on mumbling to himself out of his book, "Lay not up for yourselves treasures
upon earth, where moth-"
Alarmed at this terrible outburst between the two principal and responsible
owners of the ship, and feeling half a mind to give up all idea of sailing in a
vessel so questionably owned and temporarily commanded, I stepped aside from the
door to give egress to Bildad, who, I made no doubt, was all eagerness to vanish
from before the awakened wrath of Peleg. But to my astonishment, he sat down
again on the transom very quietly, and seemed to have not the slightest
intention of withdrawing. He seemed quite used to impenitent Peleg and his ways.
As for Peleg, after letting off his rage as he had, there seemed no more left in
him, and he, too, sat down like a lamb, though he twitched a little as if still
nervously agitated. "Whew!" he whistled at last--"the squall's gone off to
leeward, I think. Bildad, thou used to be good at sharpening a lance, mend that
pen, will ye. My jack-knife here needs the grindstone. That's he; thank ye,
Bildad. Now then, my young man, Ishmael's thy name, didn't ye say? Well then,
down ye go here, Ishmael, for the three hundredth lay."
But I had not proceeded far, when I began to bethink me that the Captain with
whom I was to sail yet remained unseen by me; though, indeed, in many cases, a
whale-ship will be completely fitted out, and receive all her crew on board, ere
the captain makes himself visible by arriving to take command; for sometimes
these voyages are so prolonged, and the shore intervals at home so exceedingly
brief, that if the captain have a family, or any absorbing concernment of that
sort, he does not trouble himself much about his ship in port, but leaves her to
the owners till all is ready for sea. However, it is always as well to have a
look at him before irrevocably committing yourself into his hands. Turning back
I accosted Captain Peleg, inquiring where Captain Ahab was to be found.
"But I don't think thou wilt be able to at present. I don't know exactly
what's the matter with him; but he keeps close inside the house; a sort of sick,
and yet he don't look so. In fact, he ain't sick; but no, he isn't well either.
Any how, young man, he won't always see me, so I don't suppose he will thee.
He's a queer man, Captain Ahab-- so some think--but a good one. Oh, thou'lt like
him well enough; no fear, no fear. He's a grand, ungodly, god-like man, Captain
Ahab; doesn't speak much; but, when he does speak, then you may well listen.
Mark ye, be forewarned; Ahab's above the common; Ahab's been in colleges, as
well as 'mong the cannibals; been used to deeper wonders than the waves; fixed
his fiery lance in mightier, stranger foes than whales. His lance! aye, the
keenest and the surest that out of all our isle! Oh! he ain't Captain Bildad;
no, and he ain't Captain Peleg; he's Ahab, boy; and Ahab of old, thou knowest,
was a crowned king!"
"And a very vile one. When that wicked king was slain, the dogs, did they not
lick his blood?"
"Come hither to me--hither, hither," said Peleg, with a significance in his
eye that almost startled me. "Look ye, lad; never say that on board the Pequod.
Never say it anywhere. Captain Ahab did not name himself .'Twas a foolish,
ignorant whim of his crazy, widowed mother, who died when he was only a
twelvemonth old. And yet the old squaw Tistig, at Gayhead, said that the name
would somehow prove prophetic. And, perhaps, other fools like her may tell thee
the same. I wish to warn thee. It's a lie. I know Captain Ahab well; I've sailed
with him as mate years ago; I know what he is-- a good man--not a pious, good
man, like Bildad, but a swearing good man--something like me--only there's a
good deal more of him. Aye, aye, I know that he was never very jolly; and I know
that on the passage home he was a little out of his mind for a spell; but it was
the sharp shooting pains in his bleeding stump that brought that about, as any
one might see. I know, too, that ever since he lost his leg last voyage by that
accursed whale, he's been a kind of moody-- desperate moody, and savage
sometimes; but that will all pass off. And once for all, let me tell thee and
assure thee, young man, it's better to sail with a moody good captain than a
laughing bad one. So good-bye to thee--and wrong not Captain Ahab, because he
happens to have a wicked name. Besides, my boy, he has a wife--not three voyages
wedded--a sweet, resigned girl. Think of that; by that sweet girl that old man
had a child: hold ye then there can be any utter, hopeless harm in Ahab? No, no,
my lad; stricken, blasted, if he be, Ahab has his humanities!"
As I walked away, I was full of thoughtfulness; what had been incidentally
revealed to me of Captain Ahab, filled me with a certain wild vagueness of
painfulness concerning him. And somehow, at the time, I felt a sympathy and a
sorrow for him, but for I don't know what, unless it was the cruel loss of his
leg. And yet I also felt a strange awe of him; but that sort of awe, which I
cannot at all describe, was not exactly awe; I do not know what it was. But I
felt it; and it did not disincline me towards him; though I felt impatience at
what seemed like mystery in him, so imperfectly as he was known to me then.
However, my thoughts were at length carried in other directions, so that for the
present dark Ahab slipped my mind.
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